This blog began as a tool to help me actually start writing more often, a means by which I could share my thoughts in a constructive and meaningful manner. That obviously didn’t work… I haven’t written within this space for years and, to be honest, I completely forgot it even existed. The only reason I am writing here today is because WordPress reminded me that my claim on this domain name was set to expire in five days.
I have a tendency to jump from one shiny new thing to next, completely letting go of and often even forgetting whatever it was that had my attention moments before. I get these really good ideas that I latch on to and try to make into reality; then, some new idea comes along and, just like the proverbial grass on the other side of the street, I am drawn to all that looks greener.
This blog was one of those really good ideas. But, alas, it just so happened that at about the same time I began the blog, I also met the love of my life. We had a six hour conversation in a coffee shop and I realized that the grass was definitely greener on the other side of the street. Before long we were married and now we are preparing to welcome our first child (a baby girl!) into the world. The blog? I already told you that I had completely forgotten about that.
While still in high school my grandmother with Alzheimer’s disease came to live with us for a time. I sometimes feel like my brain is already wired (or perhaps frayed) like hers was; unable to linger on or ponder a thought for more than few short moments before something else takes its place. Now if I’m being perfectly honest, I at least have some agency in the matter; I can ponder things for way longer than a few short moments. I can ponder for days, weeks, or even years. I can choose to linger longer if I put my mind to it. Nana, literally—mentally—could not. But I think I can understand just a little bit of the experience of moving uncontrollably from one moment to the next.
A personality test called Working Genius recently revealed to me that this is due to being driven by wonder and lacking in tenacity. Using the language of the test, I am a “working genius” in the domains of Wonder and Discernment but I need support in the areas of Ideation and Tenacity. I will happily get lost in the clouds of big (or little) ideas. I can often wisely discern healthy courses of action but will rarely traverse them to their end because, along the way, I see other wonderful and exciting paths that I can’t help but explore. This either leads to going in circles or ending miles from my original intended goal. This acute sense of wonder leads me into all sorts of trouble. Ha! Would you look at that. I really am quite often wonderstuck! But look at me, I have already strayed from my original point.
I have decided that I will begin to write on this blog again. I have no particular goal or direction in mind. I simply want to share my thoughts. Hopefully, they will carry some meaning—perhaps to myself, perhaps even to others. Of course, as the contents of the post have already indicated, there is no guarantee that such writing will actually take place. Who knows where I will be in in a year from now when my domain name once again approaches the renewal date. But as one of my favorite book series so wonderfully points out: journey before destination!
Wonderstuck 